Sometimes I draw something and I don't know yet what it means.
I drew Hayden Christensen as Anakin Skywalker the other day (#1489733) and this morning I started feeling bad, having emotions of feeling misunderstood. I continued today with drawing two more images of young Anakin.
I understood that Jake Lloyd had a hard time after the release of the Phantom Menace (understatement). Then apparently also Hayden Christensen had tough time and received a lot of hate for his performance of Darth Vader. Now I never understood all the hate towards the prequels nor expressing hate for its actors, but apparently both of the actors went through hell dealing with chronic criticism.
I watched this other interview of Hayden Christensen and became aware of how these young actors need to survive basically the whole of humanity treating them as the role and not the person who they are. I.e. getting severely misunderstood.
These images raised a deep seated belief in myself as well that I am also misunderstood. It probably stems from childhood as I was always the misfit at school. Aside from that I also grew up with my mother, not having a father which really shaped how my life experience was not like the other kids. That, and also being highly sensitive made me feel really apart; and misunderstood.
The role of Anakin has a similar fate. Anakin himself is really misunderstood by the Jedi, and he's not really being treated well by them, especially Obi-Wan.
Anyways. I can feel the discomfort today of feeling misunderstood. It's just one of those days when such an emotion comes up for review. Can I hold it, can I hold space for it, can I just feel it without running away from it? Some moments I can really allow it, and then I flip out of its pain. An old emotion often stays with me for a day and then the next day, it's like what was that trip all about, and it's integrated.
Have you ever felt misunderstood? Glad to hear other's experiences.
Thank you.
may be it can help to bring you another point of view:
https://www.miguelruiz.com/the-four-agreements/
Explain. How would that help in my case?
"I can feel the discomfort today of feeling misunderstood."
The Four Agreements are…
Be Impeccable With Your Word.
Don’t Take Anything Personally.
Don’t Make Assumptions.
Always Do Your Best. -
May be the 2nd can help you...
And/Or May be it s a lesson to dissolve the "EGO"
and so a way to go further on your path Anakin :)
I know it's not personal, but for sure it's a lesson to dissolve the ego.
These old feelings just want to be acknowledged I believe.
Usually when I sit with them or draw them out, they integrate after a day.
Then later, it will loop back over and a deeper layer is revealed.
But thanks for your resources. Sounds a bit like the Work from Byron Katie.
🙏
People lack the media literacy to differentiate the actor from the character. He didn't write the dialogue, he just should up and gave it his best.
True. He's seen as Anakin not as Hayden.
And he did what George wanted him to do and George was satisfied.
Ironically, a lot of people connected deeply with Anakin 'because' of that awkwardness and pain. The older I get, the more human the prequels actually feel.